Reira Akaba (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
gobo_projection) wrote2021-05-05 04:38 am
gobo_projection) wrote2021-05-05 04:38 am
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Mnnh...I've been in dreams before, but I've never tried to get memories out. ...But, I won't know until I try, right?
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If you do it...
...you should practice, first. With something less painful. You should get good at finding normal memories through dreams before you try to find things I've suppressed.
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....Do you think it'll hurt me too much?
Even while in Felfri, nothing came close to the worst I've ever felt... ...and that was a whole warzone, full of pain, anger...hate...
[She frowns.] ...Or...do you think, I could ruin something? Make you remember something you didn't want to remember? [That one feels more likely. It makes more sense, at least.]
cw allusion to medical horror, trauma
I don't want to remember what I blocked out. That's what he wanted. He wanted to hurt me. Forgetting...means he doesn't get everything he wants.
So, until you can make memory-dreams precise enough to help me remember the part after that, without bringing back the -- the rest of the surgery...
...
[His words aren't working right. Let him begin again.]
I think you should start with something less dangerous.
wahs softly
Well. With a serious matter like that- Reira nods, and then nods again.] Mnh- got it..!
Um.
...
...I don't know who to ask to practice on though...
[But she also clearly wants to practice so she can help...]
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Do you know anyone with a lot of good memories...?
[He's not including himself! He has some good memories, but not "a lot." Not proportionally.]
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...not a lotta people think like that here, at least not other monsters. I don't wanna really try anything with a human, in case there's something weird that could be different.
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[He's Trying...]
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...That's definitely not how it works. Mnh. Maybe I should just find someone who thinks they're definitely happy. They probably wouldn't have memories that 'feel' bad at least...
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That might work. Do we know anyone who's happy...?
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...................Oh. Um.
[........................she can't be serious.]
...Well I can't use me...
[Oh no. She's serious.] ...but....if everyone even still feels a little like what they did all over the city before, in Felfri....then. Um. There's not really...
[OH NO]
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....
[ ):
Atem reaches out and takes her hand. It's meant to be a comforting gesture in a truly helpless situation. At least they're friends, even if everybody is unhappy.]
Felfri was worse than here, for a lot of people.
[It's not much, but it's not a lie!]
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...but even if I ask someone who lives here, it might not work the same with monsters...
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I don't know how to ask that without starting a bunch of fights on the network though...and then I'll just have a headache.
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[That's someone who'd be okay, no matter what the memory was.]
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...Huh.] ...Oh.
...She'd probably be really excited to try it too huh...
[Surely that wouldn't backfire!]
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If you get good at it...good enough at separating the memories I want back from the ones that should stay forgotten...
...then, you can try it on me.
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[Reira your standards-
Anyway. She nods, resolute.] Okay. I'll ask if she'll help me practice...and then when I'm ready, I'll tell you!