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Reira Akaba ([personal profile] gobo_projection) wrote2021-05-05 04:38 am
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<CCC-REDHORSE> This is Reira Akaba!
<CCC-REDHORSE>I'll try to answer you but sometimes I'm busy or sleeping, so I don't think about the message right away.
<CCC-REDHORSE>(I might note old stuff down too...)
knifemonopoly: ([event] are you ready for it)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2022-12-12 04:20 am (UTC)(link)
[He nods. Maybe not...right now, but...maybe they could try it, if she's any good at it. And, he can ask Mana for something that keeps things from being so bad that he forgets things...if she'd really know what to do with something like that.]

That's okay. Having it on is fine...

[The background noise makes Atem feel like it's less likely anyone else heard them talk about this. It's white noise, it's reassuring in silences. So, the way he says "fine" is less damning-with-faint-praise than it might be in a different tone.]

...have you tried it before? Getting memories back through dreams.
knifemonopoly: ([event] baby let the games begin)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2022-12-18 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
....

If you do it...

...you should practice, first. With something less painful. You should get good at finding normal memories through dreams before you try to find things I've suppressed.
knifemonopoly: (the neon beckons me)

cw allusion to medical horror, trauma

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2022-12-18 04:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[...he nods at the latter one.]

I don't want to remember what I blocked out. That's what he wanted. He wanted to hurt me. Forgetting...means he doesn't get everything he wants.

So, until you can make memory-dreams precise enough to help me remember the part after that, without bringing back the -- the rest of the surgery...

...

[His words aren't working right. Let him begin again.]

I think you should start with something less dangerous.
knifemonopoly: ([event] talk it out babble on)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2022-12-19 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
....

Do you know anyone with a lot of good memories...?

[He's not including himself! He has some good memories, but not "a lot." Not proportionally.]
knifemonopoly: big into the unknown vibes ig (in the middle of the night in my dreams)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2022-12-22 06:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe someone new to here...

[He's Trying...]
knifemonopoly: ([event] this is gospel for the fallen on)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2023-01-02 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
...[He nods.]

That might work. Do we know anyone who's happy...?
knifemonopoly: (a stinging trophy)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2023-01-03 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
....

....

[ ):

Atem reaches out and takes her hand. It's meant to be a comforting gesture in a truly helpless situation. At least they're friends, even if everybody is unhappy.
]

Felfri was worse than here, for a lot of people.

[It's not much, but it's not a lie!]
knifemonopoly: (the neon beckons me)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2023-01-07 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
...we can look for someone, with a lot of good memories...or, who doesn't mind their bad ones being seen.
knifemonopoly: (that drown a wasted life)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2023-01-20 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
...Emily Grey?

[That's someone who'd be okay, no matter what the memory was.]
knifemonopoly: ([event] this is gospel for the fallen on)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2023-01-21 05:17 pm (UTC)(link)
It's worth a try!

If you get good at it...good enough at separating the memories I want back from the ones that should stay forgotten...

...then, you can try it on me.